Help Me Act AS IF, Part 3

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We'll see. He used the word "try" not "re-invest." It is very hard because I know he wants to separate, but I have to take his willingness to try at face value too.

Sex was a big issue for us and he felt very rejected, which is at the crux of his unhappiness with me, I think. I emailed him yesterday and told him that I would like to try to make up for those years when he felt rejected in that area. He said he still finds me as beautiful and sexy as ever and that maybe this weekend I could make good on that offer. (We have not ML since before Xmas, because even though we were having a sudden surge in our sex life, H didn't want me to think it meant he had the right feelings for me. So he wanted to stop ML.)

Was that too low and pathetic of me? I recall all the times he tried to get me interested, bought me lingerie, lit candles, etc, and still I wasn't into it or just pretended to be. I know that was hard for him to keep doing, so now I feel like it's my turn.

He admits he finds me sexy and beautiful and funny and smart and enjoys being with me--YET he also says he lacks some special kind of love for me and so he might have to leave our M. It is very, very confusing.