H is back and I am lost !HELP!

[Firekeeper]

thank you, cat, for support)

on one level i accept that feelings can't be trusted but then, i wonder, what to trust. yes, feelings change. but why i would trust my feelings of wanting to be with my h and as a result making a goal to work on our relationship more than the feeling that i can't stand being with him and then the goal would be to end our marriage.

i hope i would feel better today. went yesterday to see c. he wanted to write out a prescription for antidepressant because of my tears were just pouring. i remembered that i still have wellbutrin left from before. c suggested to try it again. i stopped it then due to short term memory loss from it. it is a smaller dose and i may just need it for now to go through this rough time. started today.

i just want some strength to get back to exercise. i think it will make a difference.