Wow, when there's OW, its a killer. I believe it drastically hinders a woman's already existing poor, self-esteem. You need to love yourself. Even if you have to look in the mirror every morning, and say, "I love you's", do it! But, you need to say it meaningfully. If you hear yourself saying a negative word, change it to a positive. Reinvent yourself by doing things you love, or change your looks.
Most importantly, you need to forgive your H and yourself. Its a journey, and you've came to the right place.