Getting stronger everyday!

[kissak]

Yes Lin...I see it, believe me. Youre right, I should have probably used a "what if" stratagy with my D. Thanks for recommending that.

Yes, My H has lost it...had a convo with him yesterday. He wants to work on "us" again. He wants OW to break up with him...notice I said he wants OW to break up with him...He is the biggest chicken I have ever met! Yes, he is doing it again...but the buck stops here! I know he is wanting me to do something to break them up. Yes, H has lost his mind! I didnt contact him at all today...was proud of myself. He is spinning....he needs help. I am here right now because I cant sleep. Do I really want him back in my house? No. I dont think so. I like it the way it is right now and it has taken me awhile to get here. I like being happy alone...he is not reeling me in, just thought he was for a moment. I miss my Old H. I really do...but this man, I am just not missing at all. Let him stay with the OW until he is sick of her....until he dumps her or whatever....he made his own bed and I am not going to help him at all with this one.

This is so stupid....and sad really. But I feel good about what I am doing right now. Even if he does leave her, things WILL stay the same.

I know you probably will all say that I shouldnt have even had the convo with him, but at least I know what is going on in his little head now.

What I see however is that he wants OW....until he starts missing me, then he wants me...until he starts missing her....never ending as I see it....he will have to be alone for quite a while and seek some much needed help....I will not put my kids or myself through this stupidity again....

I will keep praying however that he will figure out that NO ONE can make him happy, until he makes himself happy....and I pray he will get his life right so we can build a marriage on a solid foundation.

Maybe I can go get some sleep now.