H here tonight it was interesting he was a little talkative about work he looked ragged he works too much and is stresed i think his workaholicism also sent him to crisis He is always so concerned about this business employees my brother who works with him..it blows me away how he can spend 20 minutes on this work topic and never- never bring up the mess of our M or family I listened affirmed his problems at work same ones as before then I said I would like to talk not now maybe in a few days..let me know when is a good time for you h said talk about what??????????? as if we have nothing to talk abput right I said we have some things to clear up ..ket me know when talk will work for you and left it but I feel I got the answer and there will be no talk he knew I meant D talk he had this look on his face- like not now -cant go there he isnt ready to D and he doenst want me to file either I know it it doesnt mean he wont D eventually just not now I sense I need to let go now until I know im ready or I see a real shift in him I feel his over working could keep him from dealing with the M issues- he avoids it clearly like all is OK
one more thing I ran into my friend tonight who is in MLC I think this time she semed different she looked and sounded peacrful she said she is staying in M(for a long time she wanted to leave) she now sees possibilities although she doesnt know if she is attracted to her H anymore???? She mentioned she will be 40 next week peace peace
married 14 years H 42 bomb 2/07 IDLYA D final 3 /09 M ow D ow
