Peace, Thanks for stopping by my thread, and suggesting alanon. Have you ever gone to a meeting? I hope you find some happiness with in yourself this week, as I understand you have been down lately. This is very normal for us to all feel that way from time to time especially for you being at the one year mark. Hold in there, you can make it. Anything worth getting is usually a challenge to obtain. The standing can be challenging, so focus on you and what ever makes you smile right now. I wish I could talk to my H right now also, but I am scared cuz every time we have talked he says he isn't attracted to me anymore and wants a D. But I know this is the depression talking, so I am actually trying to avoid him so I don't become depressed myself. The last time we spoke, my H said that I am a beautiful woman inside and out, and that any man would be blessed to be with me. Then a second later he says he wants me to move on and that he needs a D. That is why I know it is the depression talking and it is so hard to hear these things come from his mouth. Keep distance for your own good, don't call unless its an emergency or something that is needed. They are depressed and need time and space. They will not tell you what you want to hear untill they are out of the tunnel. Let him pursue you no matter how long it takes. Love never Fails. I've gone through this same sad feeling for weeks myself, and I find that when I get out and GAL with a PMA, it is the best thing for me and the benefits from it have been great. Try some thing new for you that you have always wanted to do. I started doing mosaics, and its helped me keep my mind distracted while I am at home and now I have a new art piece to hang in place of my old pictures of my H and I. Thanks again & stay positive, TIPPER
