Loving a WAS isn't easy

[mymonkeybug]

Well H spoke to D5 this morning since she is home sick today and then asked to talk to me. He said he was not trying to be a pain about the income tax return but said the shop has been slow the last couple days and haivng that money would be helpul with paying the mortgage then almost in the same breath said he really also wanted to buy a bike. Well this bike he has been wanting for months is a $2100 mountain bike, yes he is avid mountain biker. I explained that I really wish we could get that for him but that was really not an option right now. I then like a ding dong sent him a text about 40 minutes later and asked if we could infact afford the bike for him and if I were to get one could we ride together. See I have never been sporty and into that stuff and thought it a great way to try to reconnect. Well he suggested NO and that I could ride with the kids. To which I replied with a question of why he is trying so hard to cut me completely out of his life to which he never replied. Yep, I still goof and try to go in for the kill when he seems to be softening and HAVE to stop.

So lesson learned don't undue all your DB'ing because you think you see an opportunity to try and win him back. He has to come to you and want to initiate ALL that stuff so for now we sit back and DB, become both parents to our kids, defend our WAS to those asking because we know they are still very good people just lost within their souls and minds.