Confessions of a Supermom - JennyF's 4th thread

[JennyF]

hopetoworkitout, bear & blindsided,
Thanks for your encouraging comments!
I have to confess though (more confessions...) that there are a lot of times when I am faking it 'til I make it. You all say I sound so strong, but I'm making sure that I sound strong even though sometimes I don't feel like it. I have to tell you that it is half the battle!

Now the other secret to my strength??
I am a practical person. I want the quickest and most efficient way from A to B. There has been enough advice from people on these boards and the past success stories for us to KNOW what works and what doesn't. I AM NOT WILLING TO DO WHAT DOESN'T WORK!
Yes, I know there will be the odd backslide...but I am not willing to prolong this any more than need be.
Dwelling on the negative and constantly repeating it isn't going to get me anywhere and it will come across when I do communicate with H whether I know it or not.
I can't just talk about GAL anymore, I have to just do it.

Einstein said...
"The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results."

I know it's hard to stop doing what comes instinctually, but when you KNOW it is having the opposite effect of what you want...STOP DOING IT!

My H and I are so removed from eachother emotionally right now it's killing me. But I'm choosing to believe that means we are closer to getting where we need to be. H is in the darkest part of the tunnel right now and I have no idea how long he will be there. But at least he's gotten there...hopefully it means the light at the other end will eventually come.

I may not be seeing results, but I'm choosing to believe that the current state of affairs is in fact 'results'. It is part of the process. If we don't get to this point...I'll never be able to let him go to figure it out. So the fact that we are further away from eachother than ever before is a GOOD thing for me! It means we're moving right along.

It's an optimist's view...but isn't that what faith is?? Believing in what you have no evidence of?

There you go bear...all bottled up for you...and the best part is it's FREE! The strength is within you, I know it's there.

Hang in there guys...you're all a lot stronger than you give yourselves credit for!
J~