No Expectations 4

[peacetoday]

Hi
Im feeling sad again
this week is hard
It still so bothers me when I think H just walks away
no regrets?
no Pain?
No cares?
I am here
everything is the same
I take care of parenting for 2
I keep house
I grow up

he runs, plays-maybe gets validation from outside world
its ok to Leave your family..you are still paying bills and visiting
His IC told us to get D last year
she said loves dies sometimes and its over
she D twice with kids from 2 different M
I am still angry with her as well
My t said I can write her a letter after this is done with H
For today I need to let go
find my PMA
and keep mouth shut
feel it coming I need to talk to H
I want to tell him how I feel
I want to see if there is any hope for us
I know its wrong timing and I cant take it anymore
peace
help