Strange but nice evening.......right after supper, W tells me that the realtor finally called her back. Needless to say i was a little surprised....I just said I guess you are moving forward or some words to that effect...I feel like you just punched me in the stomach. she said it is not up for sale yet. A few weeks ago I would have probably lost my temper or stopped talking or shut down. Tonight however I did none of that. W then looked me stright in the eye, teared up and said I am going to need you no matter what. She said she needed to work on herself and she believes in destiny. If we are meant to be together we will be. There is a definate change in her, I can see it in her eyes.....I know I can't press too much but i need to find a way for her to seek help and stay married to me. I again mentionned the hurt our D7 would go through for no "real" reason. She said that is that the only thing you are worried about? I replied "listen i told you I love you unconditionally, however I am in a much better place than i was. I want to protect D7 if I can". We cuddled for at least a 1/2 hr. She asked me if i started hitting on women or if women were hitting on me. I answered that that is the furthest thing from my mind. I won't be doing anything close tothat until i know it is over. Then she asked when will it be over. I said I guess if we get divorced that would pretty much signal it was over. I asked her if the same questins and she said there were guys hitting on her and she found it annoying and no she has no interest in anyone. She reiterated that she needed help. We exchanged some kisses. I would not say they were back to normal but 3/4 of the way there. We also had a few laughs. I don't know what to make of all this other than the fact that i know that it would be a shame if we do in fact go our seperate ways. I know now (I saw it in her eyes) that she ismuch more attached to me than she is willing to admit. After Saturday night and now tonight, I am more encouraged yet i am very cautious, I just need to be strong, more upbeat and not apply any pressure. Whew, what a night! The rollercoaster continues but I see a change in her eyes.
