Hi there, Luv. I'm new to the site but not to DBing. I'm not familiar with your whole sitch, but the title of your thread caught my eye.
My advice would be to go out while your H is there. If at all possible, why not go out and enjoy some Luv-time? You said yourself that you could really use a break. This would be very beneficial to you in more than one way. One, again, you need the break. Two, it will make H wonder what you've got going on (provided of course that you do not give him details of your plans). Should he ask, why not simply say something like, "I have some things I'd like to do. Have a great time with the kids!" Be vague but kind. Then leave, with a smile on your face .
Are there any how-to classes in your area this weekend that you'd be interested in checking out? Go catch up with some friends if you can. Do you like to read books? How about buying a new one and then hang out at a nice cafe while reading and enjoying some lunch? What about going on a shopping day? If money's an issue, then window-shop! Try on new clothes just to see how great you'd look in them! I do it all the time! And there's nothing like a relaxing mani/pedi !
Plan a trip, here and there, throughout the weekend so that you're not around the entire time that H is there. This will also give him time to be with just the kids. Remember, they want time with their father, too, and he owes it to them.
I know you want to be around your H, that you probably want nothing more than to be with him. But you have to think about taking care of yourself first. Do for you. Treat yourself, love yourself.
Think of the title you chose for your thread. "Tired and giving up". Tired? Go out and rejuvenate yourself. You deserve it and are totally worth it! Giving up? No. You're not a quitter because if you were, you wouldn't be here. The only thing you can give up on is the OLD R you had with H. Focus on YOU, and only then can you begin a new R with your H, never losing sight of yourself.
This is about YOU, Luv. Not H.
Take care, and I really hope you GAL this weekend!
Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward. ~ Joseph Campbell
.
!
