Hey guys! FYI, two of you typed Boobi Jo. It's Bobbi Jo! The other way sounds a little naughty...
So last night went pretty well. Nothing physical. H got home around 6:15 and started installing one of the ceiling fans we bought. Then we ate supper with the kids. We talked about "normal" stuff most of the evening, nothing earth-shattering. He said he was relieved to realize he only has 6 more loads of hay to move instead of 10--yay!
Anyway, the kids went to bed and then we went to bed around 10:30. Nothing physical but that was ok with me. I spooned him for a little bit but that was all. I could tell he was very tired. At midnight I woke up and saw he'd forgotten to turn the alarm on. So I got up to do it and he bolted up out of bed from what seemed to be sound asleep. I said, "Calm down I am just turning on your alarm." He lay back down.
Two more times in the night, around 2 and 4:30, I woke up and he was sitting up on the edge of the bed. Both times, he lay back down after a second. I put my arm around him once and grabbed his hand once. He held it pretty tight and his hand was sweaty. The rest of him wasn't. For some reason it made me think about him and how he used to text OW from our bed.
I couldn't help it, I started to wonder if he had been sitting up to text her. He still doesn't leave his phone out. But he wasn't hunched over, and there was no light from a phone either time I saw him sitting on the bed. This morning I asked if he was okay, he seemed restless all night. He answered that he just had a lot to do. I hugged him goodbye and said ILY, he hugged me back and said "You too".
So I am hoping it is just the stress of all the work he still has to do on the house and with the hay that is keeping him awake. That and knowing that soon he has to go in and tell his boss he quits. That would keep me awake I am sure.
In the past few months, when he was undecided about working things out, if he was stressed he would say "I have a lot to think about", meaning what to do with our M. So I think maybe it is a positive that he said this morning "I have a lot to do". B/C the things he has to do aren't about me.
Anyway he called me this morning to talk at 6:45 to see if I had heard from his mom that SIL had her baby--I had heard. Then we talked again at 4:00 about the weather and Super Tuesday (we are getting 6-10 inches tonight), then he just called to ask me a random question on the way to bowling. When he wasn't that interested he used to just text me all the time so I will take the phone calls as a positive, too.
But the crappy thing is as always Tuesday night is bowling night. Last week he was home at 10:10. But with the weather (rain now, sleet supposed to start at 7, snow between 9 and 10), I am afraid he will call and say he will be late, or that he is staying in town to avoid the crappy roads. Even though that would be legit, it would cause me to worry even if I shouldn't.....he only has 2 more weeks of bowling before he quits his job and part of me is afraid he may take his last opportunity while he has it......
Remind me, things are going well here, right??? So I don't need to get so worried????
