Counselor was so nice. Very easy to talk to (duh!). I went 1 hour and 15 minutes before she gently pushed me out the door. ;\) She made me promise to physically visit an attorney to find out my rights. She wants me to think hard if I want H to move out right now, and if I do, have an atty help me. We talked about a lot else too. I held it together until she asked me about the kids and what I thought a divorce would do to them. We have another appt next week.

H was a major A$$ when I got home. Barking and moaning about stupid stuff. It reminded me of this summer before I knew about the A. Horrible afternoon with him. I avoided him, ignored him, and tried to enjoy my time with D3 until I left for work. I know he is sick *boo hoo* but geesh.......

Both therapy and cranky H left me exhausted.

I have a 9am appt with a new atty. I canNOT afford that atty I spoke with on the phone months ago. If H was fighting custody or something awful, then I wouldn't hesitate. But other than me not wanting a divorce, I think mine will go smoothly.

The C commended me on handling myself during this time, staying above water (not missing work, enjoying the kids). She talked about how I learned to ride the storm out, while H seems to just be standing, sinking, drowning... SO true. He is a mess and is blaming everyone but himself.

2 things H changed this week: (he didn't announce these, I just noticed)

1. He grocery shopped today instead of tomorrow (his former date with OW every week).

2. He asked if he could do lunch with D6 tomorrow (this is a day that OW cannot go).