WAW....now the LBS

[HOPEFULinCALI]

LBL,

It sounds like you are stuck in the blame game and I mean blaming yourself. Like I said we have all made mistakes.

Since the bomb dropped I have seen three new therapists besides the one we saw together. I am now seeing just two, but they all pointed out the same thing that I was being too hard on myself. I believe I deserved it for being so hurtful to my husband. Still, I was dealing with my own hurt from the relationship and I did what I did the only way I knew how. Walking away may have not been the best solution, but I can't keep looking back or I and we will never move forward. Furthermore, and it is sad to say, perhaps this is what I needed to see how much my marriage really meant to me and to see my own faults. Otherwise we may already be divorced.

There are some days when I still really get down on myself, but I am no good to anyone that way and I have to continue to make changes not only for my marriage but myself. I was really able to DB once I was guided to this realization. I have an end goal in mind of who I want to be and it helps me to stay focused when those old behaviors or insecurities creep up on me.