BT,

You need to breathe!!!

I do understand how you are feeling, but the only way to even have a chance at winning he back is for you to remain strong and loving and confident.

NOBODY wants a needy person hanging around.

Now work on you own issues, and leave her be.

There can be no testimony without a test.
I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.