Short, whenever you speak about your childhood, you speak of mine also. I am beginning to understand the ramifications of having grown up as we did.
I have come to realize that I have no real sense of self worth. I know that growing up, I tried so hard to be good, so that my Mom maybe wouldnt take that dring that day. And then she did. So I wasnt good enough, ANd now I realize that I allowed my H to do make me feel that way too. I know, DB says no one can make us feel one way or another, we are in charge of how we feel. So maybe a better way to say it it that I allowed his actions to make me feel inadequate. And that brough back feelings of not being good enough.
So, I am trying to find my self worth. That is the hard part for me. But I know that I can no longer look to h to validate me. I need to do that for myself.
