The W said it was over last Thursday. She was weeping, grieving, etc. and it was pretty sickening.
She was still not being honest with me. I knew there was something brewing in her head.
Well, she decided taht she didn't like "how" they said their good-bye. It was 6 minute forced phone call. She got no "closure" from it. Uh huh.
Well, this weekend she comes to me and says, "I am going to do this with or without your blessing. At least I am telling you.... I am going to call him for closure and to say goodbye."
Despite my gut instinct of "NOOOOOOOOooo", and against the advice of friends, books, counselors, etc, I said "ok." I was promised the world if she could just have this one last thing (no contact, transparency, counseling, etc.) I let myself get manipulated.
I know I made a big mistake here. I am posting this message so you guys can maybe learn from my mistake. I gave her back control when I blessed the "goodbye" phone call. Not a good idea to give control back to the liar and the person who doesn't have me in her heart right now.
So, the "goodbye" withdrawal clock has been reset to zero. Plus, I won't really konw what was said in that phone call. Was it really a goodbye, or just some other BS.
I do know that her actions now speak very loudly and my radar is up more than ever. While I fumbled this one, I am not about to let one turnover cost me the game. I am as committed as ever to me, my family and working for what I want. I just have to get control back now before something else happens.
