Well I’d say I’m off to a good start in cutting EX completely out of my life. She called once yesterday and twice last night and I left all 3 calls go unanswered. She had mentioned last week that she wanted me to loan her some money and I assume that is why she was calling. I have loaned her money in the past but right now we are all square so I think this would be a good time to make a clean break and put an end to that practice. S16 and I have another counseling appointment with her today but I think this will be the last one. S16 talked to me about it on Sunday and he still isn’t getting along with his mom. She hasn’t kept any of the promises that she made to him in counseling and he doesn’t think she will ever change so he figures this counseling is just a waste of time. I still don’t have any idea what the future holds, I don’t have any goals or dreams to speak of. In one sense it’s good to keep the options open, in another sense it’s hard to stay motivated when you don’t know what you’re working for. Maybe this is best for now, I should probably just keep my eyes and ears open and get some ideas. For now I’m thinking I should just enjoy my time with S16, he will graduate next year and once he moves on I won’t have any ties and my options will be endless.
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