It just so happens I knew of your crummy day b4 seeing mention of it here. I guess we cross posted.
The best way I can term my existence right now is just the way my thread reads - "uncomfortably numb". The part about waiting for certified letter, who knows on that issue. It would seem that is just part of the game that MLC'ers play. They have convoluted minds for sure.
No contact fm W today, and w/ no expectations . .that was good. Saturday I played taxi-cab driver for her for about a half mile during which she did as she always does to indicate her off the charts stress level and anxiety. She talked incessantly adn in circular fashion telling me things she had already previously mentioned just to fill the void and be in control of the sitch I suppose. There is no such thing as a comfortable silence for her and in that regard we are polar opposites.
I am tiring myself out while I continue to spin my wheel on the road to nowhere.
I think I will do some pleasure reading till I knock off. (that almost sounded like something else to me . .perverted mind) Don't mind me . .been just a bit too long on the celibacy wagon. And this is just the beginning, I am afraid.
Lord pour your Holy Spirit upon me and my needs would be met instantly.
