The Deal With The Devil

[hopefloats7]

Yeah, who's Levitra? Isn't that a drug, Lissie?
lol!

I'm so grateful that so many people here are caring and kind. Thank you for all the posts.

H is coming up in a couple of weeks, to get puppy. I have a feeling that given his recent ability to open up, it ought to be a very enlightening visit. I don't know if he is staying over; he may just come up for a few hours. Perhaps that would really be for the best anyway. He has told me via text that he is very sorry he left me, but "what can I do?" and that he wants to move on. He's sorry that it isn't going to turn out the way I would want, he told me, but he really wants to move on. With himself. Yes, that's what he said.

I told him I am not stopping him from doing anything; he can and will do what he wants. I also told him I will be with no man who I would have to talk into being with me. I don't need to do that. I wouldn't want to get back with him unless he was 100% sure about it.

He did not reply to me. I know that he just wants to move on now and not be reminded anymore of what he did.

So, he will come get puppy and it will be sad for me. But I have to do it, and get through it. I keep thinking, how many times have I watched this man drive away from me now? Far too many.