I am so sorry to have asked you that question! Please forgive me!!
Do not worry!!! This was something I was bound to think about sooner or later. I think it was actually helpful to revisit all of that.
And I've found each time I do a dip in the roller-coaster I'm stronger and the dip doesn't last as long.
This is so helpful for me to know. I think as much as I have really tried to submit to this experience I am still afraid of facing the Dark Side. One of my friends described it as an "upward spiral".
Your words really helped me this weekend... everything you wrote. Thank you so much, Essie!!