One last tip: forget your W. If you want to understand the reason why you are where you are - you only need to find the nearest mirror.
I did. I saw a tired man who is trying to do the best he can to save his life. One who weeks ago was at his emotional bottom, only to be kicked one more time by his W, causing things to get even worse.
Today, he is spending at least 50% of his day actually feeling 'ok'. The rest of the time he feels something close to 'hopeless'. But compared to 2 months ago, that's a lot less time feeling hopeless and alone.
Sometimes the pain hits me and won't go away right away. Usually when I interact with W. So I need to 'sort it out' by asking for help understanding those interactions. I can't ask here without being kicked by you for ASKING those questions.
So, I do look in the mirror and see a frustrated man who wants to have some peace in his life. I take enough abuse as it is.
