Forgot to mention that the friend I went to see is getting married in June...and I am her matron of honor. I have already been in one wedding since the bomb and let me tell you, it sucks. I had to spend the weekend looking at wedding dresses, bridesmaids dresses, wedding invitations...all while keeping a smile on my face and trying to be excited for her.
Maybe that is why I got so down this weekend. Just seeing my friend with her fiance and wishing that H and I still had that love. I don't want to go to this wedding divorced and I don't want to go to this wedding alone. I really hate my life right now.
