Helloooo...Smoother Ride....Where Are You???

[SueS]

Hello All!

Well, it was a pretty good weekend overall. D3 left to stay with my parents. She called a couple of times last night.

The rest of the Sunday was fine. Just ran some errands yesterday, buying myself some things and then hung out at home. H asked a lot of of "where are you going?", "what are you doing?" questions. Even when I was just running down the hall to get mail. H made a great dinner to have during Super Bowl, asking questions beforehand about what I'd like for dinner and mentioning what he'd like to make us for dinner tonight. Oh, and he mentioned that Matchbox Twenty is in town tonight and that he wished we had some extra $ so we could go to it. Odd. H slept in the bed last night, cuddling up to me and rubbing my back. He got up later and was clicking away on the pc.

My head is telling me that it's still over and that I know H still wants to be with OW and out of my life. However, my heart is having a tough time being convinced and letting go. That logical part of me pops up out of no where at times and shouts to me that getting away from it all is the best thing to do right now. Then my heart wrestles it's way in and says, but this is your H, the man you've been with for 17 years. The logical part comes back and says, but he's the one that wants out, you can't stop him.

Well, I need to get busy. I was suprised with myself this weekend for being able to not be concerned with what H thought. He went out Sat. night and I was able to go out and not worry about things. I didn't worry yesterday when I left about getting back quickly or what I was buying. I guess maybe I am detaching. It's just still hard.

SueS