Inspired by the halftime show at the Super Bowl...
I won't back down from doing what is right for me. I no longer have a passionate desire to save the marriage. Only to save myself, and my kids. And I won't back down.
I haven't posted in a while because, well, there isn't much to say. Really not much going on here... like a lot of us, still living in limbo.
I've been going to they gym regularly, about 3 or 4 mornings a week. I do around 7 miles on on the treadmill, then lift weights. And... well, going to the gym has had its benefits. It has opened my eyes to the potential that exists with my upcoming divorce. OK, I'll admit that when I go to the gym, there is a particular woman who catches my eye. She shows up around 7:00AM and provides me with sufficient motivation to keep me comin' back. And once my divorce is final, she will be mine. I know her name, but I don't know where she lives. I know that she is married... but I will not be deterred. She's older than I am, but I don't mind (hope she doesn't mind a younger man). Beautiful? Oh yeah. Her name... is Denise Austin. When she comes on Lifetime TV at 7:00 for her daily exercise show.... I just wanna keep on runnin'...and runnin'... << ahhh >>. Once the D is final...she will be mine.
OK, seriously, things are going well for me personally, although my marriage is crumbling. The wife ignores me most times, speaking to me only when she needs something or in response to what I say to her. I maintain PMA in spite of all of this. And while typing this, she called. She needs something. Welcome to my world...
I intend to ignore Valentine's Day this year. I have no doubt that she has purchased something for Shrek, as her car was locked in the garage after her shopping trip on Saturday (usually she leaves the keys in the ignition when parking in the garage). And, no I wasn't snooping. I needed to move it, and I had little reaction when I found out (she was with me at the time). And I strongly suspect that she will be meeting him this week for some afternoon delight. She is going out of town for a week (with her father) on Friday.
Her paranoia grows, and she has threatened to prosecute me for bugging her car. She just needs to find the bug. Although I didn't say this to her, I find it surprising that she wants the father of her children in jail. I have told her many times in the past that her car is not bugged, so I didn't even mention it this time.
We have split our finances, but continue to disagree about some bills. Details are not important... but it's clear that she doesn't trust me. With a smile on my face, I pointed out the irony: "Isn't the irony delicious? You don't trust me?? Isn't that backward??" She didn't see it....
I will not be able to do Memphis, as I will be in Dallas that weekend. Too bad... wish I could go...
She has an appointment to see her lawyer tomorrow. Don't know if she's gonna pull the trigger or not. I kinda wish she would just get this thing started... and ended. Cuz I gotta date with Denise....
