No Expectations 4

[peacetoday]

Hi
feeling a little sad today
I want to focus on the good
not sure whats going on with me
seems like I do good for a while then maybe I get scared
I miss him and I want a partner
I hurt foir the kids so are so innocent
yesterday we went to pool heated in florida
another friend came with his dad
my s6 was hanging on his dad too in pool and playing
just like he used to with my H
I rarely see H playing with kids like pre mlc
then I feel bad for me and all 3 of us
how did we get here?
I have to go to get car fixed today and I have a lot of writing for work to finish and it will keep me busy
I know God will take care of me and all of us as we are doing the right thing by DB and standing
I know it is right..
It has pushed me to grow and understand more- be compassionate and alive than I can ever remember being
so we have to have faith and
in the end if out H return
what a miracle
everything we gained from this painful experience
and our M back
peace