I am so confused, not sure what hand I am playing

[Snow White]

Well I made it through the night. He called a few times late, apparantly he sat and drank a 12 pack of beer in the dark. When I asked if he just sat there and thought, he said he didn;t think about anything. He called at 10 to ask who won the game, said he didn't watch, this was the exact point that everyone was running onto the field. Good timing. Then he called at 12 to ask what I ate for dinner, and then again at 12:15 to complain that I didn't pack his toothbrush. I called his cell this morning to make sure he got up since he had been drinking and there was no one there to set his alarm. He was in the middle of getting a speeding ticket $350. So he was all about how everything in his life sucks. He is really feeling sorry for himself. Last night he said I will never forgive him that everytimes he comes home he sees the llok on my face. Now I think he is feeling guilty because outside of the few slipups that have been more than just a look I have tried very hard to be happy and welcoming everytime I see him