I do not feel that I have fully detached. I am more doing things on my own and supressing my true feelings. It talkes alot of will power. Last night After seeing the slides of our first camping trip. ( at the sand dumes son and I now go to every summer). I so much wanted to give her a great big squeeze of a hug. But I settled for a little thank you kiss on the lips. It's not a big kiss by any means but it is a kiss no less. and she does turn her head to meet mine. I am in a good place that as much as I do not want to I can go on with out her..but time is running out....I need to exspress my true feeling to someone...Hopefullly it will be her but if not......... I need to take a look at you sitch. it's been awhile.......12 more days till Vegas... starting to get buterflies in my stomach. I am not totaly sure what I am going to acomplish with this trip except to kind of stop the world for a week. get off and catch my breath. Nothig will really change. when I jump back on everything will still be there. Hopefully I will be able to look at it though with a fresh mind. Ya know I have never been single since highschool for more that a year... and even then I was a single PARENT.......Back MLC back...I am in control
Later Dr L husband
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
