All Hope is lost/Help - Part 2

[Evie]

25 yrs - H suggested I go, he asked me.

Either he went on his own or the 4 of us go. The company he wanted to go with only have 2 spaces, not 3, it wouldn't be fair to allow 1 son to go and not the other. He found another company but they don't help out with the children. He and sons really want to see D1 so he asked me to go. If he really felt like he couldn't do it, he wouldn't have suggested it. Yes i'm anxious about it of course I am, who wouldn't be?, but i'm not doing it to pursue him, I don't have any expectations, and I don't see it as a reconcociliation plan either, honest. I'm doing this so that my sons can see their sister, that's the only reason...

We have not talked about the holiday in regards to having a plan or boundaries, i plan to go with the flow, I don't need him and i will not be needy. I can do this and I will. He has already had his upbeat holiday with the boys as I have with my other daughter. H had the choice to go alone, but he chose not too. He has another working trip (skiing) with S1 in March.

I will do my own thing as well as co-parenting the boys. We will make it fun for them. H has already booked a restuarent mid week for us all to go out to dinner mid-week to celebrate s2 birthday. There will be plenty of people in the chalet to socialise & ski with so it won't be the 2 of forced together.

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