B, Hang in there. I am glad you ordered the books. Please let me know what you think of them. Also check out the 2 books that Summer recommended to me. They are free to download from Erin Thiel's website restoreministries.org. They are "How God Can Restore Your Marriage" and "A Wise Woman" (which probably can apply to a man as well). I have only just found the today so will have to read them before commenting on them.
Don't apologize for venting. It's natural and good to do so. This is what the board is for. Better to vent here than to your W or people who can pass it on to her.
It's great that she's willing to go to MC. I wish my H would go to MC with me... Keep working on YOURSELF and she'll be able to see your changes. It takes time so please be patient.
It's hard. Time has a wonderful way of passing and of helaing hurts.
So the kids live with you and your W only has them on weekends? Take care. I will pray for you. Another great book is "Power of a Praying Husband". I use "Power of a Praying Wife" to pray for my H - 10 prayers a night (out of 30 in the book) so I cycle through the 30 prayers every 3 days. I have found my prayers answered.
Have you considered using the library? There are many books that are helpful and you may be able to find some in your local library. Books like: 1) "Love & Repsect" - excellent. It talks about how woman need to be loved unconditionally. 2) "Five Love Languages" 3) "Five Languages of Apology" -PH