Confessions of a Supermom - JennyF's 4th thread

[JennyF]

Life is good.
I'm sitting here enjoying a piece of D's B-day cake & a glass of wine. And I just happen to be pumping too...one handed typing is fun!
Both kids are in bed fast asleep after a wonderful weekend!
My D's B-day was a blast. She had so much fun. There were a LOT of people here including 8 kids under the age of 3! D had so much fun, but so did I. I really felt for the first time in a while that I was enjoying social time without "my sitch" looming over my head somewhere. I think not seeing H for a few days has been good. I hope now that we have a schedule in place I won't have to see him as much.
I feel really detached right now which is good. But this week I have to deal with some financial issues that I'd rather not be dealing with. I have to decid whether or not I want to buy him out of the house. I'm leaning toward no, I'll know better when I talk to the bank and then my lawyer.
But I'm forgetting about that for tonight! I enjoyed my cake and and am really enjoying the wine. I savour every sip because I can't have much while breastfeeding. And I'm done pumping so I can type with 2 hands now.

IC,

Does your husband by chance have a twin brother? Because I'm beginning to think he does and he's married to Momma of 2 2b.

I know it's scary isn't it? Don't know if you've read any of my posts on her thread, but it is uncanny how similar the sitch's are.

What, is she a large woman Sorry, I couldn't resist...I know, I'm going straight to hell for that one.

LOL! I did have a joke to this affect following that sentence, but I erased it because it wasn't coming out right...you nailed it! Thanks!

{IC...who is laying in the hospital trying to figure out what his dinner dessert actually is }

First of all, sorry you're in the hospital. I hope everything is ok. Second, I'm sorry to gone on and on about my homemade birthday cake with buttercream icing when you're eating hospital dessert!

Thanks everyone else for checking up on me too.

I feel good. After a weekend like this you really count your blessings and realize they're more abundant than you think. At one point I started to get sad today thinking about the time I lose with my kids when they're with H. But if I keep doing that, I won't enjoy the time I am with them.

I'm nearing a point where I realize that I have to make the very best of this situation. I hate the situation. I would give anything to change it. But I can't so. So why be miserable in the meantime? My kids deserve better than that.

And as always with the DB world, it is only when I can really do this, be happy and content with my new life that I am giving it the best chance to bring my family back together. Oh the irony.

It feels really good to...well...feel good!
J~