Like how could I be so stupid not to have realized and what's wrong with me that he has to have other women and all those other awful thoughts I guess you all have had too.
Yes, I still have these thoughts. I don't like what you wrote about your depression either. Your H had no reason to have an A, none. He should have helped you through your depression, or even left and divorced you before committing adultery. What he has done is about him, not you. You are not to blame. You might be to blame (I know I am) for some of the issues before the A, but that's where the blame ends.
