Well, so much for feeling positive. I have had a horrible afternoon! H went out this afternoon to see "friends" with a bag of party stuff like chips and stuff-I assume the OW is part of the party or he'll see her later.
I talked to my brother who is slowly recovering, sounding good but tired, so I was glad about that. Then talked to a good friend who thinks I should divorce & told me she and her H suspected my H of cheating 10 years ago. My H kept making phone calls at a restaurant across from our hotel, and they think H has had more than just his current girlfriend. H has always made me think this was his first girlfriend, but now I am not sure.
So what do I do now? Just sit on this info? If it is true, it was 10 years ago. Still, I was thinking H is going through a MLC and doing this affair partially because of my depression, but maybe he has been doing this throughout our marriage and I just didn't realize it. Just really, really feeling depressed right now. Like how could I be so stupid not to have realized and what's wrong with me that he has to have other women and all those other awful thoughts I guess you all have had too...Karen
