Bomb December 5th (got a letter from her lawyer saying they were about to file, we stopped that process).
I feel it is to far gone, I feel as though she has checked out already. She says "I just don't have the feeling and I don't know if I can get it back". She wants to seperate soon, talking to lawyer this week about moving out. I don't know what the hurry is, maybe OM in waiting.
We have been getting along great today. On our way to a Super Bowl Party. I am a better man now than what she married just twenty years older. I have made some massive changes and my effort is huge.I don't think she thinks they are real but they are. Right now I feel like I want her so bad.
We have therapy on Tuesday but she dose not feel like that is going to bring the feeling back. I am trying to fill her with fear, uncertianty and doubt about what she is about to do and go from there. We just need to communicate better, become close friends again, start dating and then get romantic. It's going to be a long hard ride but I am willing to put the time in, not sure if she is. Pray for me. Enjoy the Super Bowl. Giants 30, NE 21.
