THanks. I tried the 180 with reacting to H and his habits. He got worse. It was like "hey she's not complaining so it must be OK". I have been trying to rebalance my life- I do feel out of whack. I feel like H just beats me down again.
As for a hobby-- I work from 8-3:30 and then 4-8 every day, 9-1; and 2-4 on Saturdays and usually 11-3 on sundays. I used to scrapbook, but with H back if I leave my scrapbook stuff out, H sees it as an invitation to leave receipts, magazines, books, shoes all over the place (as in if her stuff is out, it must be ok to have my stuff all over the place) even though my stuff is neat and on my scrapbook table.
I ended up leaving for 2 hours Friday night. I v=came home not feeling well and H was upset when I did't want him to make me dinner (I wasn't hungry), then I started putting away the christmas decorations that he had taken off the tree and laid all over the floor. He said I didn't have to do it then. I replied that now was as good a time as any and since he had brought the tubs in from the garage and put them in the hall, I might as well. then He said something about me being all mad, I replied that I was tired and things needed to get done. He said he would do it, I replied that I was doing it and they'd been there for 2 weeks already and hadn't been done- and now i had the time. Then he said something and I replied that I was tired of living like this. I finished the decorations and went to do laundry. I started folding it. He then replied again that he would do it tomorrow. I just looked at him and said i'm doing it. He said he said he'd do it tomorrow. I threw down the clothes and said fine- I guess i'll go get the mail- unless you want to do that for me too; since apparently all I am required to do is sit on my ass and look pretty and let every one else do everything for me. I ust be come type of freakin moron or something.
I left for 2 hour, came home and slept on the couch only to be woken by H turning on the TV.-- and yes there is a TV in the bedroom. I don't want to be around him- so I've already started limiting contact and conversation.
He is trying to provoke me- he won. And yes, I'm telling him that if things don't change and change soon, we're done for good. I can't live with him and I won't keep living unhappy like this.
OH well, life goes on.
When life gives you lemons, trade them for limes and break out the tequila!!-- Soxfan2007
7/1/05 Bomb 7/20/05 H moves out 2.5 years of Rollercoaster 10/30/07 H moves back home
