I am having a tough morning. The W showed up to church getting out of the OM's car. I was devastated. I just wanted to kill the guy. Our family home is across the street from the church and they parked in front of our home.
S12 got out and dashed into church. OM walked into church as I stared him down and W came over to me. She was very pleasant to me and it felt like she was acting that way out of guilt. She told me I looked nice and then asked me what was bothering me. I told her that I just watched my family get out of another man's car and that she should put herself in my shoes if she wanted to know what was bothering me. She said that it was to save gas that they came together in her car. This from the woman who won't ride to the boy's roller hockey games with me to save gas. I know I should be strong and let this roll off of my back, but it just hurts so much.
I made it through the service, told the boys to have fun watching the Super Bowl with their mom and that I would see them later then I got in my truck and came to work.
I am really hurting right now. I know it will pass and I will gather my strength again and get back to the job at hand, but I need to regroup first. This is just so hard.
Sometimes I feel like I can do this and am full of confidence and yet other times I just feel like I am drowning. I know you guys know what I am talking about. I guess I just need a hug.
-B
Me-45 W-34 T-5 M-3 1/2 s-10 s-12 ILYBNILWY 12/26/07 Sleeping away from home at friend's house(because she says she can't get any sleep otherwise) 1/14/08 1/25/08 We tell kids she is moving out
