The only thing I am holding back at the moment is the urge to get him down on some serious calendar positions (12 months in a week, fast forward motion \:D !!).
You make me laugh so hard! Don't worry, I think it is just a matter of time before you are writing your own Positions Calendar!!
Seriously now, I am a bit afraid to start thinking of what we should do once we are together.It feels premature. I am worried I will bring bad luck and stop the progress.
Wow, I think this is very wise. I don't know if this will help, but sometimes I try to do visualization when I am feeling very happy, open, and not needy. I will imagine us being happy in the future together. But not in a clingy, this-has-to-happen way. more like a "this is a beautiful possibility" way. That might be a way to put positive energy into the situation. But I only feel good about doing it when I am in a non-fretful place.
I also did an exercise and made a list of fun things together that we could do once we start spending time together. It was part of me experimenting with "do something different" and I feel more prepared knowing I have this awesome list of really surprising activities for us to share! One of the patterns in my R was to be a little home bound even though both of us are very adventurous, for some reason we didn't have a lot of adventures. So I brainstormed a bunch of adventures, that HE would enjoy, instead of being focused on my preferences (another pattern I would like to change). Maybe that would be a creative way to think about it too?
Or maybe you could just start writing your own calendar !!
