The Deal With The Devil

[missmyfriend]

HF, you have gone through a lot. Like every step along the way, it is best to take some time to decide where you want to go. While I do not disagree that many do not come home, I do believe that this is usually because of all the pain and desire to be away from the drama that we have gone through. I still believe most Ms would be restored but most end up moving on before it comes to fruition.

This is your decision to make however. I will be here to encourage you if you decide to wait until your H is out of the self awareness mode to the damage he caused and in the phase of trying to restore his "lost" relationships. More than likely, he is now wanting to be punished and you moving on will help him realize that he is deserving of the punishment by losing the most important person in his life.

His speaking with you, admitting to what he did wrong is similar to the prodigal son who did not expect the father to forgive him and welcome him home. The prodigal son came to the father asking to be treated like the rest of the father's workers, to toil, eat and live with the workers and no longer to be treated as his son. This is the opposite of what the world would have done. The son would have been turned away or allowed to be an employee of the father, no longer having the same benefits of being family.

The prodigal son knew also, like your H, that he had done wrong and that the father deserved a better son than him.

Your H is probably in a severe state of depression and extremely low self worth. He probably sees you as too good for him and him not being worthy of your love, wants to see you with someone better and more deserving than him.

HF, this is your situation. There is only One that should guide you in this.

With love,
mmf