My heart goes out to you. I am only 6 weeks into my H walking out leaving with the "ILYBNILWY" line after 15 years of marriage. Hang in there. Easier said than done I know. DB'ing will get easier over the weeks. I am now at a point where, I know it may sound crass, but challenging to DB and see the small baby steps of progress that come along with DB'ing. Give her time and space and yes, an affair is quite possibly par for the course. My H insists there isn't one and that none of this is about sex and I have to believe him or I will go nuts wondering. But deep down inside I accept that there probably is/was a physical affair. I know there was at least an emotional one long before he left but didn't put 2 and 2 together until a couple weeks after he left.
Sandi-
Your insight is wonderful. Although you are a woman I believe what you described as feeling and your state of mind and heart during the worst part of your MLC is hitting the nail on the head for any MLC'er regardless of gender. It is also helpful to hear these things from a WAS or potential WAS as it helps those of us dealing with a WAS the insight as to true feelings and some of what they are going through. For that I thank you immensely.
Both 35 T 19/M 15 years S8/D5 It's over bomb/ILYBNILWY 12-22-07
