sh- You certainly have been doing a lot of thinking.
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But I feel like I need to use my common sense now and look at things for what they are AT THIS MOMENT, rather than continuing to rely on what I 'think' is going on with H.
So, if you see thing for what they are at this moment, what are they? What would really change if you stopped thinking about what is going on with your H?
Your H is in crisis Your H is involved with OW Your H isn't pressing for a D You aren't pressing for a D You are moving forward with your life You aren't ready to get into a new R yet
Make a list of what is going on in your life and think about it. Maybe it will help give you an understanding of where you need to be in all of this. Personally I think you are there already...you have just had a set back after seeing your H with the orge. Live your life...enjoy your kids...take your focus off of your H...move forward acting "as if"...if you choose to stand for another 6 months, take it a day at a time.
IMO, you set a goal to give it another 6 months for you...for your kids...not for your H. If you gave up standing, would anything be different other than the paperwork would be filed? For now, I don't really think so...but ultimately, this is about you doing what is going to make you happiest...and what is going to make you feel good about yourself.
