Thanks, IMP. I do think a lot of people that are going through this need to hold onto the idea that their spouse will wake up and return; I know I was one of them for a long time.

The truth is, they don't always do that. Many times, a divorce happens. Many other times, the LBS and their spouse live as though they are divorced...just without the paperwork done.

I thought it was important to post about my interactions with H, because of where he is in coming out of the crisis he had, and how he feels about all that he's done. Certainly I agree that he has much work to do on himself, but that's the aftermath, not the crisis itself.

I try to move forward with my life every single day, a little bit more. This situation no longer consumes me. That is something we all have to learn in order to save ourselves.


Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.