I just want to make it better. . .

[seekpeaceofmind]

We had winter storm here yesterday with predictions of ice and power outages. H called to ask if I needed help to set up kerosene heaters in case I had no heat. I'm not good at taking help and I hate thinking of him driving around on bad roads. For him to come to house means lots of extra driving and his work car is inadequate for our roads. So, we did the usual dance of "it's up to you", "no, it's up to you." Finally, I thought - this man is offering to go out of his way to do something nice for you, be grateful and take it and let him feel good about it! When I got home, he had gotten the heaters out for me and wrote me illustrated instructions on how to start and stop the darn things. I called him later on - naturally, I got vm, so I just left a msg that said I appreciated it and, altho I do pride myself on independence, sometimes it is nice to be taken care of. I said I hoped he was home safe and done driving for the day. I don't expect a response b/c I haven't gotten one in months.

So, overall I'm not reading much into it, but an act of service is a heck of a lot better than being totally ignored. I have so little interaction w/ him that each one means a lot to me as a chance to DB and I don't get much practice at it. I thought I shouldn't have hesitated to take his help, but that it was positive overall.