Not good. What's done is done, but asking for the phone was a HUGE mistake. What happened to your DB plan? You need to give her a lot of space right now.
You say "I need someone to share my life with." That's just a sign that you are needy right now and require a shoulder to cry on. Reach out to friends and family for support - GAL.
Everyone on this board will agree that what you are doing right now may be the hardest thing that you do in your life.
