Yeah roller-coaster, yo-yo, etc...sux...I'd say that any quality time you are spending together is good. Keep it up. This kind of contact has got to be good. Just try not to let the ride get you to far up, down, or nauseated...lol
It's as confusing as hell - You never know what to expect one day to the next.
Yesterday was okay. W ended up ready after noon, so we went to check out the new day care and got lunch together. W had a girly dr appt afterwards, so I stayed home and did laundry and stuff while W went to do that. We did our usual Friday evening dinner with D and ran some errands together.
So, W offered to help me do some painting and stuff at my new place and last night said she'd go over with me today and do some cleaning and help me organize things. Even suggested that we get D's bed setup quickly so she can take her nap there and we can work on stuff while she's sleeping.
Last night W was pretty frustrated - Lots of slamming her laptop lid and sitting quietly. I was keeping busy, so I didn't sit around watching her, but I knew she was feeling 'off'. So, when we went to bed I figured I'd see if she'd open up - I just told her "I hope you're happier once I'm back in my own place". I half expect to get a comment about guilt trips and stuff. But no, I get a "It's not you - It's, um, everything else. You've really helped out a lot and I appreciate it". Managed to get to the point where she admitted to being very unhappy and she wasn't sure if she'd 'be happy' ever. She said that I seemed very happy, but the conversation moved along before I got chance to respond. A big plus was that she said she had another C appt on Tuesday - I didn't pry into what they talked about, but she said it went 'okay'.
This morning W was very friendly and even let me cuddle with her in bed - I got up with D so W could get some extra sleep. W told me I could sleep in tomorrow, so she must be expecting that I'll stay here tonight with her.
So, I guess I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place right now - Part of me wants (and really needs) to back off from W and spend less time with her. On the other hand, I know she's a mess right now and she has already admitted that she doesn't expect anyone to help her with things if I don't. So what do I do? She obviously wants the support structure that comes from an R with me, but isn't ready for the rest.
