Frank, I hope you realize that her attitude has more to do with the disquiet in her soul than it does with you.
Yeah, I hear what you're saying. It makes sense too.
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Leave her cell phone alone.
You don't need anything else to deal with and you also don't need to give her a reason to turn to the kids and suggest you are the bad guy because you are throwing her out.
Maybe shelve the issue for a couple weeks at least.
I did look at it, she has learned how to delete 'sent messages' now. Guess she doesn't want to get caught again.
So, I agree with you. There is nothing to gain TODAY. I will leave it alone for now.
Don't want to disconnect her phone, having the records available might be useful sometime. For now, I'll not bother to look at them again since it's pretty clear what she is doing. If it wasn't anything 'wrong' she would have said something now wouldn't she? But she said nothing.
We went to the Comedy night at the church. It was pretty funny and because of the way the room was set up she ended up sitting away from me which was good. Her friend 'S' who is her new energy worker is blissfully unaware of the situation because she was very talkative to me and to W. I'm not surprised, W would not want to ruin that relationship because she likes 'S'.
I overheard her talking to 'S' telling her she had these 'shocks' going through her body while she was lying down in our bed before we went to the show tonight. Recall I posted earlier that she seemed depressed / irritated and was lying down. Well of course 'S' agreed it must be because of the energy work she's doing with her.
Sounds like anxiety to me. I know how that feels. Not energy work. What a crock.
So at the church W was very good at acting like everything was great between us but generally stayed away from me.
But, here is where it gets interesting.
On the drive home, she tells me she has to go to the 'Casino Night' at 6pm on Saturday to set up, so I could meet her there at 7. I just said to her "I'm not going". She said "You're not?" and I said "no". Silence.
I guess she isn't happy about that. I'm sure people will ask about me since we PAID for two tickets. She'll have to give them some kind of story.
But she didn't ask me for an explanation. I think my 'tone of voice' was enough. It said "I'm not going with YOU".
The radio was on. This is weird. I'm listening to it, an Elton John song "This is your song". I was thinking to myself, "wouldn't it be interesting if 'our' song were to play on the radio?"
5 minutes later, it does. The radio was quiet, but you could hear the words. I almost cried while I listened to the words remembering how she left me when we were dating, and when she came back this was 'our song'. I looked at her out of the corner of my eye and she seemed unaffected although she was looking away from me.
Weird coincidence. Although this song is not that commonly played. My analytical mind calculates the statistical odds of me thinking it, us being in the car, that radio station being on, and it being played. Pretty interesting. It means nothing.
Time and Tide - Basia
It's hard for me to stop my heart love never knows when the time is right I don't want to hurt anybody but can't help loving you
I never felt like this before I know this is passion worth waiting for let love take take its course that's the only thing for us to do
We got time, oh baby, there's no rush gonna be a better day for us hang on and I will wait for you our love will always stay as good as new
Time and tide nothing and no one can stop us now for better for worse this time I'm sure it's gonna last
How can I stop my heart? Love never knows when the time is right don't want to hurt anybody don't want to make them cry don't want to make them cry
We've got time, oh baby there's no rush gonna be a better day for us hang on and I will wait for you Our love will always stay as good as... new
It's a matter of time only a matter of... Time and tide nothing and no one can stop us now for better for worse this time I'm sure it's gonna last gonna last forever
We got time, oh baby there's no rush gonna be a better day for us hang on and I will wait for you
Well, life goes on. A minor crisis today, almost knocked me over but I got back up. My W is still and adulteress and even if it's still 'only' and EA, I'm not going to be 'super nice validating loser' any more. This is my 'line in the sand'. Been there, done that. If she is going to say "I want a divorce" and then play games with other men then she loses my friendship and my respect.
She HAS to realize that once she goes out that door there is no way back. No way. So, she better be sure. Really really sure.
Somehow, I don't think her married text message buddy is prepared to leave his wife and kids for her. They never are. and all her other friends are buffoons.
