My GOAL this weekend is not to check his Myspace. Not even once.
It's Friday night, and I checked his site. He listed his mood as Horny.
It just about killed me, I feel nauseated and I have that all-too-familiar deep ache right in the center of my chest, as if he hit me with a sledgehammer.
I have to stop checking it, it's the most anti-DBing thing that I do. Dbing is about knowing that you cannot control another's actions, we can only control ourselves. It's about not letting their actions affect our sense of worth.
My first goal, I WILL NOT check his myspace this weekend.
*dated at age 12- 15 (me) and age 13-16 (him) *reunited at age 19 (me) and age 20 (him) *me 23, H 25 *married 3 1/2 years, 1 d *dropped ILYBINILWY bomb on 12/19/07 *moved out same day, PA with OW confirmed
