Need Advice!

[elocin777]

Hi Sandi2,

I take everyone's advice and appreciate it no matter how harsh it maybe. Both my sons were away for the 2 weeks and never knew I was in the hospital and yes I was in ICU 2 days in reg hospital for a week and psych for 1 week. They made it seem voluntary but really had no choice. It was the worse week of my life. I knew I made a mistake and really did it for attention. If I really meant to hurt myself, I would not have had my BF on the phone with me while I did it. I will regret it for the rest of my life and pray my children never find out.ANd yes I was being selfish going over to H's at night and realized it maybe too late because S10 would wake up and call me to come home. I was being selfish and luckily I realized that. Both boys do go to our family counselor outside of school. I am not to keen with the school C to begin with but this group seems to be getting him to open up, even our C was not to comfortable with school being involved. I wish I could go dark but I see him just about everyday so how does that work. I melt everytime I see him. He was in my bed this morning, no sex just snuggled for hours. Texted me all night to see what was wrong me me tonight. Do I just ignore it all. That is so hard. Really any advice I will take it. I want my marriage to work and hope and pray everyday it will turn out good. But right now S10 is my main concern, S13 is just very angry but he is also starting those teenage years. I am just so confused but I am hoping that between school, work, and focusing on boys it will occupy most of my time but I still drift to thought of H. Can't help it. I love and miss him. Thanks Sandi2, really I take no offense to any advice -that's why I am here and would love to hear more from you:)
Nicole