Thanks Lil. I'll be churning and disecting and processing what you said like the type 4 that I am.
I guess if I'm honest with myself I'd have to admit that I still feel responsible for the old sex life, so that translates to feeling responsible for the new one. And there is still a lot of unfinished business both with myself and between cac and me. Consciously I know that it's not my sole responsibility to bear but I guess my subconscious has a different opinion.
I don't think that living with my uncomfortable feelings is that foreign to me. I am not afraid of them, but I think I do tend to suppress them for periods of time, maybe because I learned long ago to do that. But I am incapable of suppressing them forever. The tough part is that they tend to pop out at the most unexpected times. The good part is that I always think I know myself just a tiny bit better afterwards.
