Hi Hope. I have read through your thread and I am with you 100%.
I just don't get why so many here can't just say "hey, hope, good luck, I support you." Are you so afraid that maybe hope is right in that many do not come home. Because I can tell you that is absolutely correct. Many (perhaps most) do not. When you keep the door open a crack, all that comes in is a bunch of flies.
As one of my Cs said: "shut the door because you can always open it again."
Good luck, Hope. And keep moving forward with your life. It does get better.
