respond or stay still?

[heartbreak2]

I am just not sure what is up with H right now.
If he wants this D he sure is not making it happen.

my L called asking me if I got the ins. papers and the ret. acct papers. Well NO>>>>>>>

so.. I called H last night and told him the L called and can't continue until he gets the paperwork that was requested. Left a msg on his vm

well he has yet to respond with paperwork or a call or a txt or an email. So I had to call the L and tell him....
H's sister was diagnosed with CA and H was out of town and I have not heard from him.
Left a vm for L and the L did not call back.

so...... H's sister has gallbladder Ca stage 4 which is the worse you can have and there is no cure.
She was suppose to come this weekend and for some reason she is not? d told me this morning that H called her for no reason and told her this and then asked about the new puppy.

now why is he interested in the puppy? he has never like MY dogs.

I was fit to be tied yesterday for I found out from the wife of H's good friend that H went to Italy with ow and travels with her all the time. I mentioned that I thought he took her to his sisters and introduced her to his entire family. She told her H this and his response was... wouldn't surprise me. my friend is totally against men who cheat so she has let her H know that she supports me in financially ruining him if we D. He did not disagree with her.

so I have not seen him or talked to him since Jan 20th and I have no desire to call him. If he calls I will let him leave a msg. and if I feel I can talk to him then I will call him back.

part of me keeps giving in and feeling as though I can forgive him yet then I get this hit of reality and realize that he doesn't give a crap about me.